Today I'm Surviving

"The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down." Psalms 145:13

Today I'm surviving

Heart beating, soul crushing, mind wandering, body hanging, I want to give up, but

Today I'm surviving

Dinner is yet to be cooking

My littlest one reaches to highest screeching

The middle one peaks with guttural moaning

The oldest one masters indulgent lazing

Today I'm surviving

The bathroom has become my refuge

The incessant demands have become my nemesis

It's difficult to endure but

Today I'm surviving

I am barely able to make myself move

I realize that instead I have another vision to behold

I want to be thriving

Mindset slowing shifting 

Feet hesitantly moving

Courage gradually rising 

I want to be thriving

Hope renewed

Faith restored, and in my mind, I embrace even more, 

the truth that

I want to be thriving

Heart beat slows, a settling comes over my soul, clear-minded focus and body ready to go. 

I'm pressing on and soon 

The sensation comes as a surprise. 

I’ve made, it’s finally here

I’m really beginning to thrive.